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i dont know why im crying out for help, maybe theres just a bit of hope in my heart left. Im tired of hating myself, I hate my face, i hate my body, i hate my voice i hate it all. People say im good looking, but people also say im ugly and point out specefic things, I try not to let it bother me because I dont want to be a pussy and in reality i could look much worse, but i guess i am just a pussy. A lot of times when i stream i feel like im about to crying at any minute, or freak out and stab myself to death. Putting this out on the internet probably has its consequences because for some reason people like breaking me down... it sucks when you tell people youre uncomterable with something and they dont listen. Ive always been bad with letting people hurt me, when someone breaks boundries i kindof freeze and just let whaever is about to happen happen.